Stress

So......
My mind is going in one hundred different directions.

I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow to see if I have to have surgery on a cyst that I was diagnosed with two months ago.  I am REALLY hoping I don't have to get surgery... I don't want to take off time from work or school, I don't want to think about health insurance turning over and having to meet a deductible before that kicks in, I don't want to think about new scars when I'm just finally getting over scars from a hernia repair back in 01'. Whew! Deep breath.  I'm not going to worry because I know cysts are so common.  Hopefully it will disintegrate on its own.  I have to keep reminding myself that with faith there is no room for worrying.  Oh, yeah and finals!! Somehow that seems the least stressful.  I guess its the only thing I have the most control over.  If I study, I will do well.  If I Can Focus Long Enough! LOL :)  Good luck and much blessings to everyone!!!  We are days away from the next phase!!! Let's get it!!!

My Story...

My revelation in class today was so unexpected.  People very close to me don't even know that story so I thank God for my classmates and Mrs. Damelio who made me feel comfortable enough to share.  For a long time I feared being judged by others.  Even though I feel my decision was merited due to my situation I wish I had more faith at that time in my life.  I am blessed to have gone through it, because I can now look back and see how much I have evolved, how my faith has been strengthened and know that God's will has been done regardless of how others my look at it.  I feel like God has forgiven me and welcomed back my gift into His arms and I pray that I will be given a second chance to receive His blessing of a life and a legacy. I only hope that my story can help my fellow nurses in training as we learn to be empathetic and put aside any judgments we may want to impose on our patients.  As nurses it is our duty to care for our patients holistically and irregardless of their status or past!

If I can just make it through this weekend!

I am looking forward to the 3-11 clinical rotation this Friday.  I plan to get plenty of rest and bring some sources of energy.  I am usually in bed by 9:30/ 10 because I usually have to wake for work @ 5 am so it will be fun to see how I am by the time the shift is over.  To make it even more fun I have to be to work on Sat @ 7:00 and again on Sunday! How exciting!  I know these experiences will make me stronger so I look forward to them and learning how to manage them!

The Learning Center's Writing Dept

I thought writing my paper was going to be harder than I thought because with two different patients I didn't know if I had gathered sufficient data.  It turned out to be better than I thought!  I utilized the learning centers writing department for help with APA for the first time and was very happy with the service.  The aide was very helpful and showed me tools i didn't even know I had in [Microsoft]Word.  It was great! 

MiDtErM

I passed my midterm! Yay!

!st day of Clinicals!

So we had our first clinical rotation last Friday.  I was sooooo excited.  I get in the car.  Turn off Mission/Appleyard onto Tennessee and BAM! my tire explodes :).  So I am able to safely and successfully get it to the Status Liquors parking lot, have to call for help, wait for help, write a note so that they don't tow me, take my ride to work so that I can take the car and finally it make it to W.M.O SUPER LATE.  When the whole thing happened all I could do was throw my head back and laugh. I'm like "Father, what sense of humor you have!"  I just thank God that I was able to look at the positives in the whole thing (like its payday so I can afford a new tire).  I was so happy that Mrs. Damelio was understanding and I luckily had one of my classmates numbers in my phone (only because I had text her for the first time that morning!).  The situation could have been ugly and stressful and I'm sure that it was a test and I think I passed:).  So anyway the experience of clinicals was amazing.  I was blessed to be able to assess and spend time with two patients because one of the them had to leave early.  Double the fun!  Double to practice.  It was just very nice, I felt very comfortable, and also the staff was excellent; so friendly, receptive, and helpful.  It was like during that time everything was so peaceful and nice and then as soon as we got out I had to run around find help to get my tire off.  My spare is rusted into my truck so no luck with that!  Got another one, had to call around to get a good price on a new tire.  I didn't finish until 730 that night! I was so exhausted, nodding in the waiting room.  Absolutely ridiculous, but I made it!

CLiNiCaLs!

I am very excited about our clinical rotation.  Since I have been in the medical field for 8 years I don't have the anxiety of interacting with strangers in a clinical setting.  My biggest goal is to transition smoothly between the different parts of the assessment and form a comfortable way of doing it without taking a lot of time, stumbling over what to do next, and memorizing the information I gather until I can document it.  I have mastered it doing phlebotomy, drug screens, and paternity testing so I hope to master this as well in a timely manner.